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May 20, 2019 by Brighton & Hove Psychotherapy Leave a Comment

What causes insomnia?

Insomnia is defined as being a habitual, or regular, inability to sleep.

Whilst it can be linked to medical conditions, the most common causes of insomnia are lifestyle related as well as anxiety, depression and stress related.

With regards to anxiety, depression and stress, insomnia is not only caused by these conditions, but it further exacerbates them too creating a vicious circle.

What can I do to help with my insomnia?

Improve your sleep hygiene

Sleep hygiene is a term used to describe a holistic approach to sleeping encompassing who you are as an individual and your sleep environment. Improving sleep hygiene involves thinking about where you sleep, how you sleep and what may work best for you. Sometimes this will involve a degree of experimentation, for example, do you sleep better with the window open or closed?

Stick to a routine of sleeping and waking

Research has shown that we are biologically predisposed to sleep and wake at the same time each day, ideally in synch with the setting and rising of the sun. Whilst the latter is a far cry from modern life, coming up with a routine and sticking to it can be extremely beneficial to both your sleep patterns as well as your physical health.

Avoid stimulants

We all know that caffeine and alcohol will impact on the quantity and quality of our sleep. However, watching a disturbing drama right before going to bed – or the news – can have an enormous impact on the ability for us to get to sleep. It is much better to consume the news in the morning when we have the mental capacity and waking hours to digest it.

Why do anxiety and depression make insomnia worse?

Anxiety and depression are two seemingly different mental health problems that frequently find themselves side-by-side in the same sentence. This is because they are essentially two-sides of the same coin.

Anxiety is an uncomfortable (at times, unbearable) feeling that gives us the sense that all is not well with the world. It is an ordinary element of being a human being and many scholars believe that we are ‘cursed’ with anxiety due to our (largely unconscious) awareness that we are going to die.

Anxiety causes restlessness and many people deal with anxiety by channeling it into activity – something that fails when it comes to going to bed. Anxiety is often described as ‘free-floating’ and will seek to attach itself to something. We can then convince ourselves that the ‘thing’ our anxiety has attached to is the real problem, however, this is rarely the case.

Depression is a state of inertia but an uncomfortable one. Anxiety (and stress) can have the function of protecting us from depression, however, eventually anxiety will give way to the hopelessness of depression. One may think that sleep would come easily in a state of depression but this is often not the case as hopelessness can feel unbearable.

Can counselling or psychotherapy help with insomnia?

If a client presented with insomnia than I would want to understand what may be causing the insomnia and to work with the client to gain a deeper understanding of what their feelings may be telling them – particularly any anxiety or depression.

Whilst anxiety is a normal element of being a human being, it should not be debilitating and an ideal is to engage in a meaningful life whereby the anxiety is channelled in a healthy way.

Alongside this is a deepening of the relationship with ourselves in order to learn to better tolerate difficult feelings without becoming overwhelmed by them.

Mark Vahrmeyer, UKCP Registered, BHP Co-founder is an integrative psychotherapist with a wide range of clinical experience from both the public and private sectors. He currently sees both individuals and couples, primarily for ongoing psychotherapy. Mark is available at the Lewes and Brighton & Hove Practices.

April 22, 2019 by Brighton & Hove Psychotherapy Leave a Comment

Why does psychotherapy matter in the modern world?

On the face of it, a process that is long-term, happens at the same time, on the same day, each week, would seem to be in stark contrast to modern life.

We are promised, and expected to subscribe to, a world where our wants and needs can be met almost instantaneously, where we can have things exactly as we want them and everything – society, identity, gender and sexuality – is up to debate and can be changed. And changed and changed again.

Social media floods our senses with messages about how to be happy, grateful and fulfilled whilst espousing ‘hacks’ and quick fixes for depression, anxiety and every human condition in between.

The shelves in book shops buckle under the weight of the latest ‘self-help’ guru or fad and life coaching promises tangible change in a few sessions. And if it does not work for us? Well, then we are simply not trying hard enough.

Psychotherapy subscribes to, and offers, none of the above.

It is not quick, it is not an experience where you can get immediate gratification or a relationship that will affirm you as always being right. It is something very different.

In many ways, psychotherapy is an antidote to all of the above. It is about learning through relationship to be in relationship with ourselves.

Through relationships we begin to see ourselves through the separate eyes of another who is compassionate, boundaried and can withstand us; nobody should become a psychotherapist if they want to be loved.

Psychotherapy is the opposite of Instagram and Facebook – it is about deeply knowing and accepting who we are and learning to live a meaningful live of substance and depth: it is about learning to be ordinary. And it is about accepting the realities of life: that life is unfair, often hard and that the only substance is to be found in relationship.

Car crashes

Car crashes have a nasty habit of drawing our attention. And then, of course, the likely outcome is another crash. When we see a car crash it takes a mature mind and person to not join it; to keep their eyes on the road and focus on their own experience.

The modern world is comprised of ever more car crashes – not necessarily in the literal sense, but in the many dramas (real and streamed to us) that draw our attention away from the road. Psychotherapy is an antidote to this – helping people steer a steady course through the chaos and drama and remaining in relationship to themselves. In this sense, psychotherapy matters very much in the modern world.

Mark Vahrmeyer is UKCP Registered and is one of the Brighton & Hove Psychotherapy Co-founders. He is an Integrative Psychotherapist with a wide range of clinical experience from both the public and private sectors. He currently sees both individuals and couples, primarily for ongoing psychotherapy. Mark is available at our Lewes and Brighton & Hove Practices.

March 12, 2019 by Brighton & Hove Psychotherapy Leave a Comment

An Interview with Mark Vahrmeyer – Viva Lewes March ’19

Mark Vahrmeyer was recently approached by Viva Lewes for an interview on ‘Mending the Mind. Below is a scanned copy of the full interview:

Mark is an integrative psychotherapist with a wide range of clinical experience from both the public and private sectors. He currently sees both individuals and couples, primarily for ongoing psychotherapy.

January 7, 2019 by Brighton & Hove Psychotherapy Leave a Comment

How Psychotherapy Taught me to Live Life

This piece is written by a ‘fictional’ client who is a composite of three real-life clients who have shared their experience of psychotherapy with me. Some details have been changed to ensure confidentiality, however, the thoughts feeling and experiences expressed are those of three very real clients:

When I came to psychotherapy I did not even really know what it was. I knew I needed something because I knew I was struggling but whether that something was counselling, psychotherapy or what I simply had no idea.

As well as not having much of an idea about what to expect from my psychotherapy, I also had no idea about how long it would take. And I was impatient! It is therefore with a surprise that I look back upon my two-year journey of weekly one-to-one psychotherapy with some degree of awe with regards to how little I really understood what I needed and for how long; from my initial impatience, a sense of appreciation and security developed from knowing that on Tuesdays, at 5pm, I would be seeing my psychotherapist.

Where I say that psychotherapy taught me how to live life, I mean this in the sense of courageously living rather than existing.

Prior to psychotherapy I approached life and relationships from a default fear position. Not that I knew that at the time – the way I was all seemed perfectly normal to me. Normal is, after all what we are familiar with.

However, part of me also know that I felt unfulfilled and lacking in purpose and meaning. Meaning in terms of my own desires and meaning in terms of what relationships could offer me.

It has been through a slow process of learning to be in relationship with my psychotherapist that I have slowly learnt to have a healthy relationship with myself. Through being held in mind, I have learnt to hold myself on mind. And through trusting that the relationship with my psychotherapist was and is genuine, I have come to accept that just perhaps, relationships with others have something to offer me.

I am now two years into my ‘ongoing’ psychotherapy relationship. It has been hard, frustrating, frightening, constructive, containing and life enhancing all in equal measure. The only commitment: we both show up each week for the session.

How have I changed

Most of all I have let go of the past. My experiences still happened, of course. There is no magic to undo that. However I have accepted that I can still have a life without having gotten what I needed as a child. And through this have come to accept that I can treat myself differently to how I experienced my parents treating me.

My relationship with myself

‘Has psychotherapy made you happy?’, people I know sometimes ask me. No. But then happiness is not the purpose of life. I do, however, at times feel content and even happy. More importantly, I am able to feel the full range of human emotions without running away from them. I can navigate my emotional world using my mind in a way I simply could not before psychotherapy and instead would use all sorts of distractions to avoid feeling.

My relationship to others

I have far deeper and more authentic relationships with others – something I now realise I avoided in the past for fear of them really seeing me and then rejecting me.

Relationships have become important to me and I am far more able to tolerate difference in those around me – to accept that they have different minds.

In summary

Put simply, my life now has substance. I know more about who I am, who I have been and how I spent much of my life hiding from myself and others because of not feeling accepted; I now have compassion for this part of me.

Mark is an integrative psychotherapist primarily informed by attachment theory and object relations psychotherapy. He works relationally and sees individuals and couples in Hove and Lewes.

November 26, 2018 by Brighton & Hove Psychotherapy Leave a Comment

‘Where Should I Start?’ – On the flow of a psychotherapy session

Starting psychotherapy can be a daunting prospect. Researching the right psychotherapist; making contact; booking the appointment; finding the practice; waiting in the waiting room; and then…. you are invited in.

You enter and sit down. Water is on the table. Perhaps you help yourself as you are suddenly unexpectedly thirsty. Or perhaps, unconsciously, the thirst delays the awkwardness of starting the session. Eventually that moment arrives and you are unsure where to begin and so ask ‘ where should I start?’.

In fact, my experience is that this is a question that, for some clients, will repeat over and over again in the relationship and it becomes a significant part fo the work: how to work out where to begin each week.

On taking space

Whilst it is conceivable that someone with a perfectly good childhood should choose to enter into psychotherapy, it is in practice highly unlikely. Especially if we differentiate between short-term counselling or psychology, and open-ended psychotherapy.

All of us can fall victim to the uncertainties of life and can find ourselves struggling to make sense of a difficult event – perhaps a divorce or an accident. These would be perfect examples of events that may require a period of focused counselling. However, as troubling as these experiences can be, it is only if they throw our whole existence into doubt or bring down the edifices of our defences, that psychotherapy would be required.

Therefore whilst it is possible that someone with a good childhood would come into psychotherapy, most of those who do are coming (unconsciously or not) to work-through and repair attachment damage, neglect and trauma in their early relationship(s).

And for children who have been neglected, and thus not held in mind, it can then be hard to suddenly find themselves in an environment where the Other (the psychotherapist) is fully holding them in mind and is interested in everything they have to think and say. Where in the world should they start and how can they learn to feel comfortable taking up the space for themselves? Being truly seen when one has not been seen can feel very exposing.

Knowing where to start, is all about desire

When a client asks me where they should start a session I will mostly hand this back to them in a gentle manner. I invite them to be curious about how they might work out where they want to start.

I then quite often get a relaying of the week’s events, if the client is one I have seen before. Once again I will hand this back and ask them what it is that they want me to know about how they are feeling about their week. Often this is then met with a blank stare and then we can perhaps address the issue at hand: how can they work out what they want to share with me as someone they are in relationship with?

Knowing where to start is all about desire. It is about having a relationship with ourselves and working out what we would like to think about in the therapeutic relationship. It is akin to choosing what to eat off a menu – in order to know what we want to eat, we need to get in touch with what we ‘feel like eating’. We try the different dishes on in our mind and then choose which we will focus on – which becomes the dish we will order and eat. Therefore desire tells us about what matters to us – what is important to us.

And yet choosing were to start has a further complexity – we must choose what we want to talk about and then bring this onto the relationship which means acknowledging that our psychotherapist will have thoughts, feeling and perhaps judgements about what we tell them. That can bet very confronting!

From a duet for one to a dance of two

Psychotherapy is a relationship and as in all relationships, they are not static. They follow a trajectory of, if the relationship is positive, deepening over time. It shifts and moves, develops and cements as a relationship, where two people are in dialogue with each other and who matter to each other.

Where we start a session then is about allowing ourselves to accept that we are in a relationship with someone who not only holds us in mind and to whom we matter, but crucially, letting our psychotherapist matter to us. The question of where to start then simply becomes, ‘what do I want Mark to know about me?’.

Mark Vahrmeyer is a UKCP registered psychotherapist and co-founder of Brighton and Hove Psychotherapy. He works with couples and individuals using an psychoanalytically informed integrative approach and sees clients in Hove and Lewes.